Man in the attic

Sam, do you madam has been cooking every night for the last 4 days and she has been talking on her own at the dinner table?Sarah, the maid was complaining the guard. " I came in the morning two days just to find all these food on the table untouched and yesterday I had to stay in the kitchen because she told me to do so and I heard her speaking to someone. When I came out to see who it was, there was no one, I thought she was on the phone but she wasn't. I am worried about her Sam.

Sarah, he said. This has been happening for a while, but I don't think she realizes what she is doing. I will let madam's sister know. I think she should be coming today.

In Sangee's office in Royal Infirmary, she was chatting with the junior doctor from the Cardiothoracic department. "Rishi, have you heard about Mr. Raj Malhotra, I think he is one of the surgeons in your department?" I don't think so Sangee, I have never heard of the name even, and I kinda know everyone there. There's Shaheed, Ram and Richard. No Raj.

Sangee was taken aback. Was he lying?Then who is he??and why was he lying?I better check. So she called her friend in the administrative department to check if there is someone called Raj Malhotra working in the department, but to her utter disappointment, there isn't. And then the call that woke her up came.

Radha???Why is she calling now. I am not in the mood to talk to her right now. Who is Raj Malhotra then?Some thief??burglar??Radha called again. "Hello Akka, why what happened?" Sangee, Sam your guard just called. Remember the problem you had 10 years ago. I think it has come back.

Man in the attic

"Thump,tap,thump,tap",I heard as I was locking the door of the library,RAJ?I was wondering.Maybe a figment of my imagination.Maybe it is because subconciously I want him to be here.Without giving it much thought,I went straight to bedroom and.... "Whoa,RAJ!What a plea... what a suprise? Pleasant suprise Sangee?" ,he replied.I came through the attic again,you know what I am kinda getting used to the whole climbing and hiding thing.It's kinda fun I think.Rather than the usual take the key,open the door and viola I'm home.Have you had dinner Sangee,I am starving.Can you cook Sangee,or shall I rephrase that,can you cook something for me Sangee? "I haven't been cooking in a while actually Raj,but I guess i could try,I mean coming through the attic must be really tiring I guess,"I said as I was walking out of the room towards the kitchen when he said"There's no need to be so sarcastic,haha." Truth is that something deep inside me told me that he would come back tonight.Something deep inside me told that this is something more than "I have heard lots of good things about".But I have no clue what this something is. After 2 hours,we were sitting there,at the dining table,done with dinner.I wouldn't say I am fantastic cook but I guess Raj thinks I am.Or he's just being nice. When we were both so filled up and tired,he suddenly asked" Sangee,have you been in love?" I was taken aback by this question.Should I give the answer?Or shall just say no,and not talk about the dark past? He deserves to know the truth I thought."A 36 year old woman,successful career and not too bad looking,at least I would like to think so,what's you bet Raj?""I would go with a yes,do you mind telling me what had happened?" "His name is Shaheed,you know your typical good looking,successful bloke.We studied in the same university,in fact,you might even know him,he is a cardiothoracic surgeon as well.The thing about him is that,even today I am not too sure if he was ever in love with me,or was it just "I need a company thing".Don't think I will ever know the truth.We were together for almost 3 years and then one fine day,he told he was getting married to a rich man's daugther.I din't know what to say,I was just so shattered.Whatever energy and zest for life that was left in me,was put together for my final MBBS paper,which got me that gold medal,I said while pointing towards the gold medal that was on my study table." "After that,I completely lost my trust for humans with the XY chromosome.I just couldn't bring myself to trust anyone.And whatever said and done,I haven't found another guy like Shaheed.He is just perfect I guess,at least for me.Anyone else would be a huge huge devastating compromise,so I decided not to marry,I looked away as I could feel tears welling up in my eyes. And then I asked Raj."So Raj,why din't you marry,I mean look at you,smart,handsome and rich,don't tell me you can't find yourself a girl?In fact,after Shaheed,you are the second most good looking guy I have ever seen.I could sense jealousy on his face.Evil me." "Well,I suppose no one would want to marry a guy who has been chasing the same girl for the past 15 years?What more,when does all sorts of things like climbing up to the attic of her house and stuff?" He looked straight at me and said,"look her Sangee,I don't mind waiting for you for another 20 years even,but I am scared I might die of a heart attack or something before marrying,SO will you MARRY ME? OF COURSE,OF COURSE I WOULD!!! And from then on,he came through the attic every single day. To be continued....

Man in the attic

"Haaaaaa",cover your big fat mouth when you yawn Sangee,I could virtually hear my mum yelling at me.12.30 am,probably time to call it a day.So I switched off my Macbook Pro and stapled the papers together so that I wouldn't have to wake up to a mess.I was about to lock the door of the study room when I heard footsteps above me."Haa,no one has been up in the attic in years,I wouldn't be suprised if all the animals from Amazon were living up there",Ï thought to myself.And then I heard it again.This time it was louder and it was as though someone was running.I panicked and pressed the intercom swiftly."Sam,SAM,can you hear me,there's someone up in the attic and I want you here right away.I am on my way now,Ma'am''.There was then complete silence and then I heard again."Thump,tap,thump,tap".But this time,it was not coming from the attic.It sounded as though it was coming from somewhere nearby,somewhere behind me.I shut my eyes tight and turned around.I know I shouldn't do this.Just like how when you start cursing the actors in a horror movie when they go searching for trouble.And I opened my eyes,the next thing I knew I was on the floor,flaccid.
When I opened my eyes,I was in my bedroom,tucked into my bed.I looked around,at one glimpse there was no one.I let out a sigh of relief.Then I noticed that something was amiss.I heard someone sing in the shower.Oh god,I have been raped,I have..
So this is what it was all about,break into my house,rape me,take a nice hot shower.Millions of thoughts raced through my mind.I don't want anyone to know about this.There is no way I am going to the police nor the hospital.
I froze when the shower door swung open."Hey Sangee,you fainted last night,so I decided to tuck you into bed.Oh boy,you were really heavy I must say.""Who are you?and what did you do to me?"I have never seen him before.He doesn't even look familiar.And what the hell is he doing in my bedroom.What is a stranger,a male,doing in my own private space!"By the way," he said,I am Raj,Raj Malhotra.I have heard about you Sangee,very impressive young lady I should say."I tried to cover myself with the duvet when I heard the word impressive.And he went on,and I thought I would drop you a visit.I came yesterday morning at about 9 but your security guard did not let me in.He said you were having some sort of conference with your students.So I decided to break into your house at night.But,you are worth all the trouble I should say.Beauty with brain.Were they talking about you when they came up with the saying."
I was just to dumbstruck to say anything,I mean he breaks into my house,very eager to meet me,why all these trouble.Ohh,maybe he has got a sick child at home that he would like me to have a look at.So I asked him,"so Raj,what can I do for you,I am pretty sure you have heard me from some doctor.SO,come on,tell me what's the problem? your children,are they all fine?"
"Hahaha,children,now now,the last I heard was I am single,and have been single all my life.A serious manufacturing defect I guess.A liability even to the reject shop.Maybe we have a little chat about how I am,since I already know tonnes about you Sangee.Care to leave the bed already?It's almost 10 am now.I will meet you downstairs,lets say in 20 minutes.I know you girls take a long long time I get ready".And he went off.God,I hate him,what on planet earth does he think about himself.I am going to finish him off in 20 minutes,when I meet him downstairs and yes,he is going to be single all his life because no women would fall for a man who intrudes her privacy.
And I meet him,downstairs,with unimaginable amount of food."You cooked all these by yourself?I din't even know I have so many things in my kitchen."Oh well,actually I din't,he said.Montgomery Cafe did.I know you love the food there.So I told them to bring it in especially for you.Now,please let me serve you,Sangee.
You know my name,you know what I like,and what I don't.And the last time I told anyone about all these was years ago,I am placing my bet on at least 20 years ago.Since the time I moved into my current mansion.Since the time....lets not get there.I looked up to him and I asked him,"so Raj,why don't you tell me a little about yourself.It would be really unfair if you knew so much about you and I know nothing about you."
"I am Cardiothoracic Surgeon,at the Royal Infirmary.I looked at him,and I said"You mean the Royal Infirmary in the city right?I work there too,for the past 20 years,but I have never seen you?"Oh well,the eyes don't see what the mind doesn't know,I guess.There was a very awkward silence."How long have you been following me Raj?You seem to know why too much about me.I have to say that I find it a little..."I just couldn't find another tactful word for freaky,when he said"scary,freaky?You want to know something Sangee.I have been following you for the past 15 years.And I first met you at a lecture,when we started off our respective training.You have always been on smart chick,haven't you.Everyone praised you,you are really good at what you do Sangee.Astonishing career,best in your field ha?"
"You are not to bad yourself,Raj.Cardiothoracic surgeon?Must be running around the theatre,making big money 365 days per year ha?"I only know him for less than 2 hours,but somehow the fact that he knew so much about me,made me feel comfortable with him.Although the fact I don't know anything about him makes me wary.
We spent the next almost 5 hours talking about almost nothing.And I din't put a fullstop to him and tell him to go home,he would have gone on for another 100 hours.We just had to many stories to share.A complete stranger.What has happened to you Sangee?At the age of 36,has the cupid found his way to your heart?

To be continued........

Man in the attic

"And,students that's the end of the class today, we will have another video conference on next Tuesday.Make sure all of you read up the latest paper on management of Tetralogy of Fallot." And I switched off my Macbook Pro.My faithful companion for the past 3 years.Before my demented brain forgets,I am Sangee,a pediatric cardiologist.And that was the video conference I was having with my 4th year medical students.Gone were the days where we used to get up at 8.30 am for a 9am class, run as fast as our feet could carry us.Students these days,I should say are pretty spoiled.In my lifetime,I have seen medical education evolve dramatically.Whether it is for the better or for the worse,I am in no position to comment.But I should say that my students have made the best out of what was thrown at them.
But have I mentioned that my job doesn't define.In fact,I have got a pretty interesting personal life.At least I would love to think so.I teach music at the local primary school during the weekends, write scripts for plays and spend the non-existant free time relaxing in my comfortable Victoria era mansion that I bought over from a wee lad who was not interested in keeping his family treasure.But I saw a home in it.
And I have been staying,for the past 20 years,all by myself.That is if you don't include Sam,the security guard and Lily, the housekeeper.So much for a successful life.
I belong to an average family.Although we din't have much money,we were very happy.My parents are the simply the best.But I have always hated growing up since that would mean separation from them.And my most dreaded day came.And it took me 10000 kilometres away from them.It has been 30 years since I first left home.I still go home every year without fail,but me being alone has in some sense made me love my loneliness.But don't get me wrong,the time i go home is possibly the only time of the year I am happy.Minus my birthday of course.
You must be wondering,successful career,lotsa money,big house why don't I bother to get someone to share my life with.A partner?A cat?A dog?Nah,not an animal lover.I was talking about the cat and the dog part.A partner.Now,now let's not get there.I took a glimpse at the clock I got from Turkey that was hanging on the wall.1pm.I better start cooking lunch.For one person.

To be continued...........

I will forgive you and I will forget about you

You know how the old phrase goes,to forgive and forgot.Easier said than done,definitely.

The thing is right,sometimes the things people say to your face,its like how should I say?It's like smoke and smoke alarm.Trivial amount of smoke won't trigger the smoke alarm,ain't?Same goes here.You say something, just ignore as just another intellectually challenged person and I move on.But somethings,well lets just say they stick to my mind,hypermnesic I guess.

So what happens next,you trigger off the alarm,the fire engine comes,the next thing you know you're all wet.You obviously make me angry,but the good news is I don't stay angry for long,you know poor arteries,they don't deserves any of these.But oh well,my brain capacity is just amazing.Too amazing sometimes.I REMEMBER THOSE WORDS.

And now,you try to act cool,and so do I.But just another similar incident,and every word you uttered before comes flooding into my mind.Very difficult to chase away too.

Here comes the best part,you still act all innocent(I really don't get it,please),you act as though I'm the evil one,plus you have got someone to back-you-up(best part la).You make a stupid story which you know who will just believe without even digesting,come scolding me as though I'm the scornful one.Pathetic,marvelously pathetic.

p/s:you know who told me not to get myself involved in any of the functions.I'm obedient.I won't and I will never.Mark my words!

Go get a life,will you.

Crystal ball,where art thou?

*Disclaimer-this post has got everything to do with you people=)

Crystal ball,crystal ball,where are thou?

It's suprising, really suprising.How enlightening blogspots can be.Just yesterday,I was reading a very close friend's blog(mind you,she is like a professional blogger,she has 3 blogspots to date=)) and you realise how much she has grown in the past few years,starting off a simple teenager's blog to now,whoa, a super mature doctor to be*gives her a pat*

Reading all her the 3 blogspots in one night was tiring but what the heck,it was as good as looking at those dusty photo albums infested with silverfish. A mind blowing trip down the memory lane.If only I knew how things would have turned out back then itself,well,not like it would have been any difference,AT ALL.

Probably we should talk a little about some of our friends who vowed to give their lives,organs and goodness know what else for friendship.Hachooommmmmm!*sorry,I'm allergic to bullshit*Look at you now,you hardly keep in touch with any of the girls,even when we try to do,you just don't bother.And that,isn't exactly the worse part of it all.You spoke ill about your so called best friend in college,yeah I sound like a high school bimbo,but what you did isn't exactly intelligent as well.I think I personally cared for her more that you ever did because you simply aren't bother.THAT'S THE WORD!!BOTHER!!Yes,I agree there are moments when you feel like killing your own friends,but the only reason you don't so is because they are your friends.And women,don't even get me started on the other issues*it will probably a 1000 page post then*

And people of the world,those are the type of people not worth keeping in touch,not at all.Because all they need in life,is romance.Nothing else,sad people=(

People change.The phrase has always been associated with a change for the worse.Oh,come one,the world is a harmonious place,the sky is bright,the sea is blue,so yeah,good things can happen.And aren't necessarily miracle.It can always been simple things.Like my blogger friend I told you about(please remember the fact that she's an awesome med student too!)

We had some issues donkey years ago,and at that time,trust me,it seemed like the world came to end.But now,looking back at it,what the heck.*Lesson learnt-wish goodbye to stupid foul temper*(packs her anger in a bullet proof box and throws it into deep ocean)

And of course there's always gal,the study,lepak,movies,entire day buddy=)It's really odd,how I end up being best friends who look nothing like me=(Apparently birds of the same feather decided not to flock together=)She's friends who will not leave me no matter what happens,even if I turn into a toad or something*gosh,how can that happen*.And thanx to my wonderful fate,we're half a globe apart.But,what the hell*must be said in Sihan's style*,there's always skype,there's always Tony providing us with cheap flights and there's always telepathy(although I'm not exactly sure how this would work though). As jiwang as it sounds,till death do us apart,gal.

And of course,there always the whacko senior/bestest buddy award winner from college,without whom life would have been incomplete,simple,boring and less dramatic=)It's really strange,a common friend mentioned about her even before I met her.To quote him'you will find her helpful'.A person I'm super glad I met in my life,someone who knows practically everything about me,whom I know everything about.She knocks sense into me when I lose mine,she gives me a piece of her mind when I need it.She rocks!!!AHA!

To be continued......

My Biggest Worry

My biggest worry at the moment,I would say is to think how to spend my 7months holidays as wisely as possible.Doesn’t sound difficult, but if you’re Tamarai, you would know how it feels to be sick of holidays.Well the point is,I’m not here to talk about my holidays.

Ever heard you friend complain about her failed relationship? Your parents going on and on about the price of food stuff going up? Your friends complaining about how difficult the exam was? AND yet,you don’t feel for them? Well, don’t feel bad, because I think quite a number of us go through these. Sometimes, your own problem seems bigger than everything else. So what if her boyfriend left her,find another one.So what if the exam was difficult, better luck next time.I bet some of us say would say these.It’s fine if you want to act tough and pretend that your heart is made of stone.We don’t want to.

Okay,okay I’m getting there!!!What I’m trying to tell today is that sometimes,maybe most of the time, we fail to think about others. Food prices going up maybe nothing at all for you, but your parents will now have to think about forking out that extra cash. The exam may have been easy for you, but not for everyone else.So think.Don’t just think about yourself.Think about others too=)Unless you are Will Smith(The Legend), the world doesn’t just consist of you.

So the next time,before you complain about how slowly your mother walks in the supermarket, think again.After all,you maybe on wheelchair at her age=)What goes around,comes around=)Have a good day everyone=)

Living in the memories of yesterday

I looked around.Everything seems alien.Where are those familiar eyes?That familiar laughter?

It doesn’t take much to realize your absence,

I wished for your mere presence,no chatting nor sharing jokes,

For it makes me feel complete,

Now,it is as though as piece of the jigsaw puzzle is missing,

Although we never really spoke to each other,it is the familial surrounding that I long for,

I still look for those familiar eyes,knowing that I won’t find them,knowing that you are something of the past,

But,I still do,

Because,I am living in the memories of yesterday.

You gotta A story.....tell me?

Gossiping..it's probably one thing that all of us have done at some point in our lives....well...by definition even reading those magazines talking how britney went bald is considered gossiping...
well...look at your face in the mirror ans ask your dear self..."Darling...do you talk about me?"asnwer..definitely yes....even I express my opinions about people...only when I really have too...by nature...i don't say things to the faces of others...that's just plain rude if you ask me...so well getting to the point...why do you talk about people you dont' even know well...as in you know...yeah i have seen her in Uni and i hate her kinda thing.WHY people???WHY???I am not going to go on and write how person x gossiped about person Y....that's just too childish...point is you don't talk about people you don't know...only you know how difficult it is to be you and how things change...so if a dude out there behaves in a weird way...let it be....look at yourself first and then judge others...A person who doesn't behave in the way you want him or her to behave isnt a bad person....If you can't except them they way they are ,then too bad for you.

You are never the perfect person....so screw the idea of judging others...especially based on their external appearance...if you think you are so beautiful. or good looking...enter some beauty pageant.period

The world needs clones of?

The world needs clones of?

a)Barack Obama to prove that the world can change,upside down.The very same country which oppressed the blacks a couple decades ago said yes to their first black president.Way to go Uncle Sam!!!

b)Nelson Mandela a fantastic fighter.He spent half of his life time in the prison for his people.name me a current leader who would do that for his people???I think if you want to fight for a cause,your own life should be put into it and not merely words...

c)Mahathma Gandhi(i could actually write a whole post one him but that for later)-All the killing,bombing,butchering and etc are sheer waste of time.You kill may guy,i kill your sidekick.For that,you take another man's life from my crowd and the vicious cycle repeats on its own.Bottom line is ,its never ending,Unless you decide to end it.Period.

d)Good mothers-Today you have mothers who send their daughters to prostituition centres.Gone were the days when mothers used to protect their daughters.No to forget mothers who flush their newborn down the toilet.
(an interesting fact from Freakonomics-apparently the number of criminals in the 1990's were far less than what had be expected owing to legalization of abortion in 1970's-criminals are apparently unwanted babies,so by nipping th problem in the bud...hahaha)

e)Good fathers-Fathers who teach theirs sons games and not smoking,fathers who teach their daughters who to protect themselves from men and not themselves rape the daughter.Fathers who are always the for their children and not those who walk out of the house when the kids need them the most.

d)people who walk their talk.Talking is very easy,making something happen isnt as easy.So think before you talk,dont regret after you have said it.

e)You and me-God has given this gorgeous Earth to us,thinking that we would take good care of it.But look at what we are doing to it today.We will never realise our mistakes until things go really out of control.But hey,besides that we are good kids,aren't we???

YOU...must be be wondering why not write about things that the world doesnt need....I'm no God to decide who should go...but I'm human being to decide what more we need!!!

A battle of good versus evil

A battle of good against evil!!!

Lets go back in time..perhaps a few hundred decades ago..Ravana,King of Lanka(what was later known as Ceylon,Sri Lanka today)abducted Seetha,the beautiful wife of Sri Ramar,one ofthe avatars of Maha Vishnu.
He later killed Ravana and saved his wife...obviously.But the catch was that he was not sure if Seetha still as pure as she was before.So he told her to walk through fire which she did,and she was not harmed by the raging fire.So endof story,they lived happily ever after.

coming back to 2009,oh wait probably 27th of december 2008...yeap u got it...the day Isreal started attacking Gaza..the world stood up against Isreal..17 days and stil counting...hundreds of rockets are still attacking the militant hiding among the civilians in Gaza..killing the civilians in the so-called process of wiping out terrorist....My question is why cant the world do something about...THE WORLD..Isreal is just a country in this world.
Apparently Uncle Sam is with them.He has used his veto power in the United Nations 28 times to protect the terrific actions of Isreal.
I do know the story behind this war for a piece of land which started in 1973...but I'm not going to talk about it...The very sad part is people regard the war as a war between two religion...which i wouldnt agree too.I feel for those mothers who have lost the dear children in the last 17 days...i feel for those young babies who have lost the mothers...I feel for the people of Gaza who are now force to flee the city...fearing that they might loose their lives.I'm not a Palestinian neither am I a Muslim...but I feel for my neighbours who are fighting in Gaza and I would always keep the in my prayer.
How i wish everyone could look at this issue the same...every single time something comes up...it's always related to some religion or publicized that way.NO RELIGION is bad.
You may be wondering what the Ramayanan Has got to do with the current situation in Gaza.In both situation it's a battle of good against evil.
I sincerely hope that all these killings will be over soon...we have lost 900 plus civilians and those peers mine(fellow doctors and nurses)...hope God is there with you every time you receive a patient,

and to Isreal,i really dont understand the need for these massacre..if it is for a piece of land...i dont think what you are doing is worth your time.You have started using phosphorus rockets which has been banned by The convention of Geneva years ago....like you ever listened to anybody...we have seen how destrutive radiation can be to humans.SO STOP RIGHT NOW.We have seen and heard enough.